Yandere Princessu - The girl who blush and looked away, she hid her smile and with the glint in her eyes, she took out her chainsaw x)

Caution: This is... disturbing. Dont read at all.

(just to show you that I can be insane and have problems. Don't worry at all. This post is just an 'experiment' of thoughts. To see how far I can go, to see how much horror my mind can invent. Nothing too original / creative. I'm never good with horror stuffs.) 

Do you love yandere type? Hehehe x)

Welcome to my bloody, psychopath thoughts.

Smilling innocently, I walk up to you from behind. I use my precious chainsaw to hack you, but dont worry my love, I won't slice you in half. You'll live to see more. Here's my cutter so I can cut a few samples of your skin, flesh, veins and muscles. Wait honey, dont run. If you run, I'll have to cut your leg, wouldn't want that, would you? Aww, see what I've done, told you not to run. Okay, not to worry. Here’s a little kiss from me to make everything feel better. Heyyy! WHY did you flinch away from me!? I am not happy with your attitude. Come here, I’ll do something about that brain of yours. When I’m done, you’ll be obedient. Hmm? I can’t hear you with that cloth in your mouth. Ohhh~ I found it <3 Okay, this might hurt very much a little. So I took the axe and swing it down. Yes, now I can finally see your brain. Hmm... Wait... Here’s the hammer I was looking for. So I smash your brain a little and stick some needle in to make it look pretty. Hey darling, are you okay? You don’t seem so well. Oh no, I think I’m losing you. Wait, stay with me. I would do CPR but I didn’t know how. All I could do was claw those skins out and finally, I found your heart. I’m so glad. I pluck it out and kept it in a jar of honey. That way, you’ll be mine forever and ever and ever and ever and ever, right? x)

Do you love me now? x) Is that not enough? Alright, you asked for it. I'll make sure to swallow your bones and flesh. I'll seal off my ass hole that way you can never leave me and will live inside of me.

Listen

More often I am insecure than I am confident. I don't believe in myself. I used to believe in others but they've let me down.

I've been told to grow up and been told that I am like a child. I am trying to grow up but now I can't even say my feelings out loud. I believe that no one is going to listen to me. I am not allowed to tell him my feelings as it will get me labelled as a child that is immature and just won't ever grow up.

I can't be strong when no one believe that I can. I am constantly push down, again and again. And I was so happy that he would tell me that he knows I can do it and wants me to, and my best friends would all support me. But soon enough, something or someone would push me back down. But I'll be fine. I'll keep living, breathing and surviving ^.^ Notice me. I am not fine.

Here lies my goodbye to you, if it was to be needed.

You've never believe me when I told you I'm not feeling so good, never take me seriously when I tell you I have problems. So when I break apart someday, you'll know I've tried to tell you and asked for your help which you never bothered to give a damn. And on that day, an angel will come for me. She'll smile for me, whisper softly into my ear and kiss my cheek. Then she'll hold my hand as I close my eyes. She'll take me away as I fall into my eternal slumber.

Today, I was driving back from college at 1730 and the weather was hot!~

I wish I have a tank, with heavy machine guns that'll fire under the command of my fingertips! Could easily blast off those stupid drivers who doesn't know how to drive! Seriously, I'm trying to turn at the intersection point and you just had to drive slowly as if to provoke me and I can't turn because your lane is the priority damnit! And for those motorcycles that just wouldn't stay on the left lane, I could easily hit you with my kancil ^.^ Now if there was only a legal way to get that done >=)

Flowery Scent Smells Nice

Yesterday, mom went out and I was starving at home. I called Kyle and he brought me food! <3
He said he already had dinner and there was some rice left so he came over to my house just to give me the food. It was around evening, and he knocked on my door. I peek through the door hole but couldn't see him, then I opened the door, and he appeared from the side and said, 'Boo!' Then he gave me the food and went home.

That is one of the nicest thing any person besides my family have ever done for me. To come over my house, brought me food, and didn't want anything in return <3

Today, I called him at 9:30AM and it's already late because I overslept. He told me, if I'm sick (which I am and everyone knows) I don't have to go, really. But I said I felt like going, so he came over in 10 minute and we went to 'fattong' together. I sat beside his grandma and we talked a bit and she kept laughing >//< She said I was pale as ghost compared to her. And told me to eat more. I nodded my head and laughed with her. I guess I had a good time, it was comfortable being with her, she laugh because she's happy by the slightest things, and I just automatically smile and laugh as well. And I don't have to keep thinking about making conversation, she's not a person who talks a lot. It was nice.

After that, me and Kyle went to Sunway Pyramid because I told him I wanted to go bookstore and use the book vouchers. He really really really drove us there! And he didn't complain about going and wasting time there! Even though I ended up not using the vouchers because we just don't want to queue up for a full hour just to buy some stuffs that could be easily bought at nearby bookstore.

I'm happy, and blessed right now. Thank you, God. Thank you, mom and dad. Thank you, Kyle's parents. Thank you, Kyle (I love you). If I am going to be thankful and write a whole list about who to thanked, you'll probably need few hours to read it and a whole day for me to write it down.